Where He leads...

I've been reading the John Piper book, Dont Waste Your Life. Last night I was reading about how God was leading and guiding him by narrowing down the path for his life. When he was in college, he came down with Mono. Shane and I both can relate to this because we have also had mono in the past (no...not at the same time)! It is hard to paraphrase what the book said so I will just quote it.

Noel (his wife) came to visit, and I said, "What would you think if I didnt pursue a medical career but instead went to seminary?" As with every other time I've asked that kind of question through the years, the answer was, "If that's where God leads you, thats where I'll go." From that moment on I have never doubted that my calling in life is to be a minister of the Word of God.

This is a huge time of searching for Shane and I. It is a confusing time as well. I cant even begin to describe all that we have been through in the last few years. Many of you...actually...not one of you would ever really understand or know all that we have experienced. I have really started to pray that God would make me the wife and mother that He would want me to be. That He will help me to not be fearful of the future and that I will trust in Him to lead and guide us where He would have us go. I really just ask for God to make me let go of all the things that I am holding tight to that are not from Him and that I would just keep my eyes on Him. All the silly "stuff" in this world wont last and it isnt what is really important. I pray that I can know this in my heart and not just my head. Only what we do for the Kingdom is what really matters. I want to be a wife that is supportive and willing to go wherever or do whatever He leads. I pray for strength and that I wont be fearful of what is ahead of us whatever that may be.